i cant stay on your life support, theres a shortage in the switch...i cant stay on your morphine cuz its making me itch.

i hate the smell of winter. Its like everywhere is bau damal + badan + sigup. UGH. i hate using the bus where the people are extra bau and the floors are wet! I dont know about other posh places in the UK but here in North Wales, its mostly org tua yg lahip yg pakai bus.

i had the worst bus experience ever yesterday. It was the most excruciating 30 mins ride ever. It was a normal bus yg the blakang bit is a step higher than the front. so basically those di belakang can have a good over-look to org didapan. a bit. Anyways, theres this org sadang tuanya who sat two seats in front of me. His hair was balding - u know, yg atas kepala lasak but dibawah ada rambut. Mcm Si Gundul di Bangor ( inside joke. U know who im referring to). Kepalanya brigali coz his skin was flaking off in HUGE CHUNKS. It reminded me of keloggs cornflakes yg babu selalu pakai untuk buiscuit cornflakes raya but maybe 5 times bigger. *muntah muntah* whats worse was everytime the bus braked, the flakes moves and ada yg tegugur-gugur.

FUCK. Wear a hat, would you?!

You know how u tend to take things for granted back home. Im referring to food. It took me 21 years to realize that my favourite Maggi flavour is actually Curry. Back home i wudnt have realized that coz im spoilt with choices. Or maybe coz its too hot to actually enjoy Maggi curry there. So yes, Maggi Curry is the ultimate winter food.

Help im alive my heart keeps beating like a hammer.

This is a really good song to listen when u're in a 'malas ku peduli' mode. Its a cross between a female version of Muse, Paramore, The band that sings in 10 things i hate about you ( forgot the name!) and there's a part where it sounds Cheryl Crow-ish ish. Its one of those songs where u would find yourself jay-walking or dancing around in your underwear to. You can also moshpit to it. Well not really a bloody moshpit. atu berijap tu- u know, one of those imaginary desires to dance with your hands all over the air, hair swishing all over, head goyang-goyang with the flashing spotlights on u. Like a Basshunter videoclip :p

I would make this a background music to my blog but i figured that it'll be damn annoying. I hate blogs with background music. I DONT LIKE YOUR MUSIC. It scares the pants out of me when some random song just came out of nowhere.

Me and another Bruneian fellow mate were discussing how clingy and uberly dependant most bruneians guys are. especially those overseas.

We do get those who minta masakkan.
We do get those who wont go out unless kena dangani.
We do get those who wont go out unless he's with 4 or more other people.
We do get those who wants to be close to you in hope of 'kena manjakan'.
We do get those who minta masakkan FOR FREE.
We do get those who wont walk to the kitchen unless he's with a companion.
We do get those who would call u randomly after he just finished skype-ing long distance gf

i do believe in the whole ramah mesra memucang mucang hidup bermasyarakat BUT you dont have to go with 6 other people just to take money from the atm 2 minutes away! You dont have to cancel your plans to make an important bank meeting just coz the other person wont go which results to the another person wont go either which will cause another person to back out. REALLY? whats the purpose of studying overseas if you dont learn anything about independance???

Cheryl Cole bida dulu

ignore the post title. it was just a post x-factor syndrome. i just cant believe how cheryl cole was never actually noticed dulu. its like a complete transformation thing and it just keeps you wondering how and why.

winter is here. At least thats what it says so. When i was little i used to wish for Brunei to have winter. i think it would be great to play around in the snow and walk around in puffy jackets. Well sadly thats not the UK winter. I even had to google 'smelly coats' tadi coz i wanted to get rid of that annoying damal and masam smell on my tweed coat. the rain is dreadful. It kinda spoiled my weekend plans. By weekend plans i mean going to some market and some bargain shopping. No more getting ready for nights out..i just cant be arsed. We u r alone, u make sad plans to fill in the time. Owh i forgot to mention Habibi is back to Libya for some work and will be back on Thurs *eeekkss*. The last weekend when he was gone I went to London to keep meself busy ( and other than that, i miss everyone to bits). This weekend's plan to keep myself distracted by the long hours of winter was a failure.

I hate how winter is to my skin. I have eczema and it got super bad when im here. Im not sure whether its the water, food, hygiene, dust etc. But i generally blame the low humidity. My skin has been breaking out with red angry patches everywhere. I tried cutting down meat but sama jua masih!! cibai. next plan, food supplements and fish oil. I even tried the Water Therapy. I had to wrap myself with moistened and wet soaked bandages and then re-wrap them with dry ones. Its supposed to lock in the moisture. again, i just cant be arsed.

and winter makes me malas mandi!! its just soo cold. I am living in a tin, literally. Anyways, i got 2 electrical heaters but they just only heat up specific spots. Im quite anal about my shower water pressure. i dont like showers that are alang-alang. ( I hate it when someone flushes when i shower. i used to scream in the toilet. We got a water pump for that. hehe). I want those jet pressure shower!!! My landlord said that it will involve re-constructing the whole water pipeing. kebesaran.

Hanya ku sampaikan doa dan kiriman tulus ikhlas
Dari jauh kupohonkan ampun maaf
Jangan sedih pagi ini tak dapat kita bersama
Meraikan aidil fitri yang mulia


:(

2nd raya being away.

wheres what

i was at the clinic yesterday getting my supply of eczema creams and pills to stock up since im going to head back soon. There was this guy. Not bad looking. Decent. It was an eye-to-eye moment of a second thing then his name got called out at the pharmacy section.

anyways not that i remember/care bout his name but the pharmacist was explaining to him LOUDLY on how to take his medications. Inda alang-alang ia explain ah baik tah saja the whole clinic dangar. The clinic apparently that time was silent as it was filled with half-dead zombie look a likes yg iski escape kraja.

" Ani tiga kali ah di urap arah tampat yg kana ah. Kalau bulih jgn dipigang or pakai kain tutup. Sapu nipis-nipis". Then the pharmacist shoved the cream to his face. " Dtg in 5 days".

I cant help it but giggle and mum ( who think i have a fairly innocent mind) said " Herpes".


kes]ian wah. i really think that they should bag the medicine up before handing them. Confidentiality ,man. And whats with the transparent plastic bags?? Ketara jua masih! WHy cant they use paper bags and tape it just like the ones back in UK?